wonderful day~

wow!!! wat a wonderful day!! Halcyon Day!!
10.00am: waiting for everyone to gather~^^ den that E and T din manage to wake up on time~== omg!! waiting until 11.00 am~~
11.00am: depart from INTI to Mid Valley^^
1.00pm: reach Mid Valley and den snowflake~~^^ nice time^^
1.50pm: wohoo!!!! You Are The Apple Of My Eye!!!!!! Damn imba and epic and damn amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! love that so much!!!!
3.30pm: Korea food!!!!!!!!!!!!! nice^^ hahaXD
after Korea food, den free time^^ i walked alone and bought ice crem ( lemon and choco mint~) epic flavour mix=.= quite not bad^^ N and C and friendgo buy watch and E and T go starbucks and then games=.=
6.30pm: Bowling and Basketball time^^ hahaXD damn imba^^ nice man!!!!!!! i din even realise how much money i spent on that basketball=.=
8.30pm: bk!!!!
11.30pm: dinner=.=
1.00am: basketball wif ching ying^^ hahaXD have a nice talk and sharing session^^ hahaXD damn enjoy^^ we have done one more very imba thing!!^^ hahaXD i vl never forgt^^ hahaXD den chatting and watching stars at basketball court and den chat under blk bout religions and language until 6am sth=.=
den oni i go bk room, bath and wash clothes and den blogging^^ hahaaXD

wat a nice and enjoyable day!!!!!!!! looking forward to another day^^ hahaXD epicly hapi!!!!!!!!!!

emo day

emo emo emo!!
everything is gonna change, i dun feel like having those changes... every good thing has an end, but dun ever say tat the past things are nothing as there is always somebody who take those past tings so seriously and those things has deeply crafted in their heart. nothing is nothing! there is always no effort which end up nothing as there is always somebody who appreciate tat and somebody who remembers them, so dun feel tat yo are nothing as there are still somebody who cares. there is always somebody who dun wan anything to change and they regretted to noe you too late... if we are together since we come in, den most of the thing will change? the situation will change?? no one can be sure of tat, oni God noes...
i really cun imagine wat life would be after tomorrow... everything is out of my imagination and expectation, feeling too unsecured now!! i really cun accept those things as i cun estinate... i dun wan my life to missing you, i dun wan me myself to change tomorrow but i dunno whether i can do it~~ i try my best to let myself to be myself and to let myself to remain myself but if i did change, please remember, i dun wan to and i feel sad for tat, sincerely~~ please try to help me to remain me myself as i dunno hw far i will go without realising just like before~~
i love you and i dun wish anything to change~ thank you for making my life here to be colourful and wonderful... i love u guys and u guys are really not nothing~~ u are everything~~^^ nothing is nothing... remember tat!!

a person who smiles a lot doesn't mean that the person is happy or optimist.. it can be the opposite.

everyday, the same... class, office, dinner den slp gua..
playing and chatting and laughing are all the ways to help you to hide all the unhappiness and the sad things. everyday, i know only how to hide all the things and only know how to avoid thinking but when the time which u will be alone comes, everything seems so sad... u feel so alone... and nothing you do can help.. nobody will realise and know how many things and experiences that you have encountered and endured in the past. all they can see is the one unmatured and a sohai person who keep making people laugh and she do not know anything. however, they do not know that those kind of people are the one who encountered sth and they are scared to lose sth and this might e the way for them to prevent from losing something that they care. sometimes, one might be too proud for you to accept, what u do is to hurt them more by words but you do not know that this is the way they try to protect themselves.. sometimes, one might be too sohai and it seems that they do things without thinking, what you do is just to laugh at them, but you do not know that this is the way they avoid something and they want to make you to care for them as they care for you... sometimes, they smile a lot and keep laughing, what you do is just to say that they are just too stupid to laugh at those things which are not so funny, but the things is that you do not know if they do not do that, they might not have the time to laugh so happily.. they ae just finding and appreciating the time that they can laugh and smile happily, even it is just that moment that they will forget everything to really have a laugh.
don't ever look down at someone who seems so stupid as they might be the one who encountered more than you do and they might be the one who lives more miserable than you and do not laugh at those people but to care for them bcoz what they want is the love and care of yours and the person who open up their heart for you~~ you do not need to do many thing for the people as they believe people too easily~~ and if you betrayed the person, you will never ever get the person's trust again and you will never the so gud wif that person again~

forever? i dun believe in forever.. everything has the end and it is just the matter of time. just treasure all the moment that you have now and try your best to beautify it! do your best to make it the best! there is always an end of everything and dun ever believe in forever. sbd might be the best friend of yours at the present moment but after some time, the friendship will fade, the memory will fade and you will forget the gala and happy feeling when you are being together and unconsciously, you are being further and further away from your best friend and you will get another one and the same thing goes round again.

at this very moment, treasure the people around you coz everything has the end no matter how you prevent it not to happen and how you wish it wun happen.. but that is impossible to make things forever!

Friends~~^^

after so many days preparing and playing and chatting together, i m so sorry that time flies. i will never ever get used to my daily activities without you all. all the while, we are like family~ i really miss that time when we can do things and play and chat and staying late with you all. miss that time so much! i regret time flies so fast and i regret knowing you all so late where 15th is gonna end. in inti, my best time ever, is to be with you all, and my best thing ever, is to know you all.

thank you for everything... but i will never get used to life in inti without you all~~ can the time please reverse back? back to the time when we are together preparing things, chatting, playing, supper+ing, and staying till the next day! i miss the time when we are together~ but we are in this together~^^

everything has its own opportunity cost~

i hope that when i get the thing that i will get later, i will still remain the same~

however, i noe tat is impossible~ ppl change according to the environment

when the environment change, ppl sure change, even you dun wish to change, you will still change!

sometimes, iam wondering whether i m too sensitive? maybe what i endure is more than the others or mayb what i think is different than the others~

i have decided to go for it, and this time, i will minimise the change~~~~~~

i wanna make what i think of to be a real one!!

this time, i m firm and stand on my point of view very firmly!!

yeahh~~ i really regret to b born so early~ it was torturing to see all the happy photos without u yrself~ yeahh!! i din really care about it n i dun wanna care about it~ bt yet, still too thick skin to go n comment about it~ yeahh!! nbd really did care about me...i noe~~ tat's it~ yeahh!! i jus haven found sbd who regard me as important as i feel about thm~ yes~~ tat's virgoan~~ always think too much!! i shud say mayb~~ yeahhh~~ i m used to it~~~ bt sometime, it's kinda irritating seeing all those stupid idiot faces in the photo!! yeahh~~ i wanted to hate it~ bt wat's the point?? wat do i gt?? yeahhh~~~ to gt a place in a person's heart is really difficult~~ u wan thm to care for u as u care thm~~ yeahh~~ impossible~~ i m always the one who stand bside n see thm playing gaily n i m always the one ppl vl forgt whn they dun hv anything to do or whn they wan me to help~~ yeahh~ i noe~~ dun think i m a stupid!! i noe everything~~ even if u din say anything, i noe~~ i noe tat u din care about me~~ i noe tat u dun like me actually~~ i m nt the kind of ppl that is as good as XXX and i m nt as soft as XXX n i m nt as playful as XXX~ watever~~~~

jus hope tat i vl gt sbd who really cares me as much as i care him or her~~

as always

as always, i noe i m jus the one who jus think too much~

as always, i noe i m jus the one who dun deserve the care~

as always, i noe i m jus the one who r jus a pedestrian in yr life~

as always, i noe i m jus the one who dun deserve to be known~

as always, no matter hw hard i try, i jus cun b the one sbd care in their heart~

as always, i m the one who are jus too care of friends~

as always, i m the one who are giving out and sacrificing more than the others n yet they dun appreciate it~

as always, i m jus a clown playing n fooling around to make ppl laugh~

as always, i m jus simply the one ppl will forgt~

I DID TRY!!! I DID TRY TO BE THE ONE THAT U TAKE ME SERIOUSLY AS YR FRIEND! I DIN ASK U TO REGARD ME AS YR BEST FRIEND!! I DIN ACTUALLY WAN TAT!!! JUS, CN U PLS DUN IGNORE ME? CN U ALL PLS DUN FORGT ME WHN U WANNA DO STH? I JUS WANNA BE APPRECIATED N ACCAEPTED~!!!

REALLY, I DID TRY TO BE BETTER!! N IT REALLY HURTS WHN U DIN APPRECIATE IT N U CN EVEN FORGT ME!

HOWEVER!!! NVM!! I M USED TO IT!!!!!!!!!!! AS ALWAYS!!!!!

世界最远的距离

世界上最遥远的距离
不是 我就站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你
而是 明明知道彼此相爱
却不能在一起

世界上最遥远的距离
不是 明明知道彼此相爱 却不能在一起
而是 明明无法抵挡这股思念
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里

世界上最遥远的距离
不是 明明无法抵挡这股思念
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
而是 用自己冷漠的心对爱你的人
掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠

miss u all

Mumu!!! i miss u all~~~

i miss the time when we eat maggie together~~ waiting for the hot water and chatting!!! we eat together and chat together~~ ppl here cun attract me to have Maggie wif them~~ coz the Maggie doesn't taste so nice without u all, tat's y i din usually eat Maggie here~~ How i wish i cn still taste the same Maggie~~ bt i noe, without u all, Maggie would not taste as gud whn we r together!!

i miss the time whn we sing n talk in the bath room~~ da mumu and er mumu will always be the one who bath the fastest!!!!! n den will say me to bath the slowest n call me "a mo" ~~ i cn still vividly remember the time whn we sing together~~ here, there is no one singing in the toilet~~how i wish i gt another chance to sing wif mumu in the toilet whn taking bath~~bt i noe, it is impossible ady~~

i miss the time whn we run bk to the hostel to fight for the bathroom~~we skip meals~~ how happy the moments are!!!!!!!! here, the bathroom was always empty~~ u wun nid to fight for it~~ u wun nid to wait for the others to finish taking bath~~~

wif u all, i wun b left out~~ coz we have each others' heart~~ bt here, i am always the one being left out~~ coz i dun always have meal with them~ n den sooner n later, they wun even find me~ jus like nw~~ at this very moment~~~ they r sharing the same food and i m the one who r sitting alone bside typing blog~~ missing u all~~ coz i dun eat wat they eat~~ nvm~~ i noe i will nvr find ppl like u all~~ i noe i wun find those who will always care the others feelings~~~ i noe i wun find sbd who are able to stand the highest position in my heart, jus like u all~~ n i wun open for others~~ coz in my heart, i wun b able to fit in others other than u all~~~

mumu, hw i wish i cn straight away c u all~~ hw i wish we r always together~~~~~~~~~~~~ i miss u all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i luv u~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ and i treasure all the moments we r together~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ the moments will always be kept deep in my heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Do u all noe hw much i miss u??????

Knight

If there is no knight, how do the Prince and the Princess can be together?

If there is no knight, how does the story attract the others attention?

If there is no knight, how does the Princess can be protected when the Prince is not around?

Being a knight, it is not easy...

Being a knight, you have to watch the Princess, who is your love one, to be with the Prince.

Being a knight, you are only the one being used to make the story attractive.

Being a knight, you are the one who is responsible to protect the Princess when she is in danger.

Being a knight, you have to hide all your sorrows in your heart.

It is not easy to be a knight, but i am always willing to be one as i believe there is someone outside that will see the knight that has worked to hard and make the knight the main character in the story... It's just the matter of time~~~

There must be somebody who will love the Knight~~ That's what I believe~~ n that's why i m willing to be one~

ignored

seriously, m i actually born to b ignored??? i reali cun understand!!!!!!! in my primary sku, everyone treat me nice coz they wanted to use me!!!! or else, they dun even wanted to talk to me more coz i din have the same topic as theirs...yeah~~ i cn understand tat... all they say, i cun understand n luckly i've gt mao mao, jiahui, solvia n the gang~~ luckily~~ bt tat time, i reali do hope tat things vl change!!!

bt when i m in the secondary sku, i cn still feel the same feeling!!! tat reali makes me feel very disappointed~~ n again i cun do anything~~ luckily again, i've gt jing jing n jia yi n den gt sing yee wif us aso^^ yeah~~~ reali greatful to them~~ coz without them~~ i reali dunno hw i m going to survive in my sec sku life~~reali!!! den, i reali do hope tat things vl change whn i go to the university~

however, i still cun... though we do eat together, or sometimes do things together, they din care me aso~~(mayb i m too sensitive) bt hw vl u feel if sbd u cared din care as much as u care him/her?? hw cn u feel nth???? sure u vl feel very angry n sad~~ yeah~~~ by the way, i m nt tat kind of ppl tat everyone likes to b wif... i m proud, i m dirty( mayb), i m nt easy to gt along wif, i m ........... watever!!!!!!!!!

bt, i m nt going to tolerate anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have had enough!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! nw, i dun wanna care anymore!!!!!! if i wan it, i vl do it on my own!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wun care wat ppl think of me again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dun wanna care!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my feeling today~~

Today was really a free day… I stayed in my room all day n watched drama n did all the things I needed to do^^ though I feel very boring, I m glad tat i finished all my things… the oni regret today was tat I did nt read many today… kept watching drama n did nth… actually I should read more in tis free day… bt, I din did tat… really cun tahan my temptation to watch the drama… regretting nw T_T

Nw oni I understand wat frienzz are…n who really r my frienzz… (I have been thinking tis all day aso) thx to all my real frienzz tat relly keep me in their heart n appreciate me^^ I do luv u all n I do appreciate n feel hapi to have u all as my best frienzz… in inti, I realized tat I really cun find any firenzz like u all, like to read, like to study, like to play aso, n have almost the same thought as me^^ really… I cun find anyone… mayb I haven seen one, or mayb i really cun find one or mayb thr is no one same or similar like u all n me T_T frienzzz, we really shared a lot of hapi moments together n had a gala time together…although thr were some unhappy moment, we r still best frienzz until nw… coz if everything is gud, den ‘ gud’ means nth… so, a precious memory usually n often comes wif both hapi n unhapi moments…^^ rite? Buddies, I really miss u guys… all the hapi moments n wat we had done together really printed in my heart n I really cun n dun wanna erase it^^ I miss u all… everyday…^^

For me,

Frienz r like gems

As precious as gems

For me,

Frienz r like my family

Always treat meas their own family

Giving me all the things I need

Always know wat I need

Always understand wat I mean wat I wan n wat I m thinking

Really…. Frienzzz….

I wanna tell u ‘FUCK’

Dun b angry

Bcoz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

F rienzzz, U Can be Kept

Kept where???? In my heart forever n ever ^^

I luv u frienzzzz ^^

16-05-11

Today morning, after walking to the class, we were all told tat our basic computing tcher was nt going to come… == we r all very ‘zha dao’ lorrr~~ T_Tden, 3 o clock, GNS class, quite nice…. I like wat tcher say 2day “ u have to b as discipline as the alarm clock”… ^^ wat a nice idiom…^^ yaya, wat she said was rite “wat is the use of the alarm clock if u wanna slp bk? So, jus wake up when the alarm clock rings.” Haha^^ yaya~~ wat she said was really rite^^ bt tcher, do u noe tat thr is a thing call satisfaction? Haha~~ when u gt a chance to slp for more, of coz u wan!! ^^ so, tat’s y many ppl, including me, wanna slp bk after the alarm clock rings…^^ n den after the general studies, I gt my eng class… wat a boring class… wat he said was so unclear n he was so so so so so slowwwww~~~ haizz~~~~~~

At nite,I ironed my clothes whn they all went out for dinner… den, we gathered together in Abby’s room^^ having a nice chat^^ den, whn they go supper, I on9 n watch drama lorrr^^ haha~~^^ n nw, I m going to slp ady….-.-zzz tomorrow no class, so I cn slp late a bit^^ haha~~~so so so hapi ^^

Jing, hw r u today? We din sms today liehhh~~~ very tired????????? Miss u, dear… I luv u^^c u soon^^

15-05-11

Fri, i go bk home... very happy...n i watched drama till 5.00am...^^ sat, i went out yamcha wif my frienzzz^^ haha~~~~ very very very hapi to c them^^ bt sat was a very busy day T_T i went to buy a lot of things n at nite, i went to buffet...

today, i gt a new laptop from my mother liao... n coz i gt ady one... the laptop i gave car car to use liao^^ i reached my hostel at 8.00pm sth lorrr... den gathering wif frienzzzz...

jing jing, i vl b very miss u liaoT_T my frienzzzzz, i miss the hapi moments wif u guys...T_T hope tat we cn meet each other in the future n all the best to u all T_T gud luck my frienzzz.... c u all again together mayb after 10. 20 or even 30 yrs... gud luck, guys...^^i vl miss u all^^

mumu, i miss the time we live together... if i wanna find sbd like u all, i think it is impossible... cun find any roommate like u all liao... reali miss the time we r together liehhhh~~~~~ gud luck to u guys arrrrrr^^

13-05-11

Today i had a 8.00 am class... n after my classes end, i come back to kulai... my beloved kulai...^^ so happy^^ n i even drove bk till Yong Peng!!! wat a hapi n exciting experience driving on the highway~~^^ bt i m damn tired... den i went to my cousin's house for buffet n den went to Secret Recipe to celebrate my mom's bufdae^^ den, my sis n i watched drama till latenite till nw, 3.55am^^ sososo late... n i m damn damn damn tired...

the jpa, i din gt... though i knew it, i m so down n actually i hoped tat i gt it... bt unfortunately, i din gt it...haizzzz~~~~~~~~~~~~~ i m nt gud enough...haizzzzzzzzzzz~~~~~~~~~~ nvm... i vl study harder n harder so tat the govrnment vl regret tat they did nt offer me the scholarship... i promise to study very very very HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

frienzzz, c u all tomorrow^^

12-05-11

today is a happy day... today morning, i went to block c's study room to discuss the homework wif my classmates... the class starts at 2.00 to 4.00pm oni...the basic computing (lab session) was sososo difficult... my knowledge bout computer is nt gud n den they wan me to do tis do tat by ourselves... wat the bloody hell!!! OMG!!! haizzz~~~~ evening, go out for dinner by car... a frien's roommate's car^^ haha~~~ den go gathering till nw... we had a long chat n sang songs n many others... i feel tat our friendship is getting stronger n stronger...^^ tat is a gud thing^^

buddies, tomorrow i vl b bk to kulai... hope to c u guys soon... jing, i miss u^^ really, u vl b my best friend forever n no one vl b able to replace u in my heart... really... tis is wat i realise in the toilet when i wash my clothes... i do wish tat u vl always b at the side of me... T.T u r jus like a part of me...n i cun live without u... i really think tat...i really miss those time we were together... i miss u... n i luv u^^ (i m nt a les arrrr) haha^^

mumu, do u all miss me?? i really miss u all liehhh~~~~ hope u guys r doing well n gambate arrrr... da mu, i hope tat u have ady decide to go whr liao^^ when all of us gt time, dun ever forgt each other n come out to yamcha arrrr... jus nw, when i do my washing, i realise tat i do miss the life in the camp wif u all... singing in the bathroom, playing in the room, chatting, scolding n criticising ppl, eating n many many other things... really... hope u guys r the one living wif me nw... miss the hapi moments when we lived wif each others...

hw r all my buddies going on lately??? i wish i noe...........

gud luck~~~~~~~~~~~~ n nite~~~~~~

~~NITE~~

its too late ady... my room mate is having her sem break n i was alone... what i m thinking nw is all my fellow frienzz n my family...

really, absence makes the heart grow fonder...really~~

jing, i reallywanna c u^^ i really miss u... u noe i gt many things to tell u, bt jus when i saw u, i was too hapi n dunno watta say ady...really miss u... at form 6 i hope u gambate arrr^^ wish u all the best^^ u can do it^^

jia yi, i miss u too n all the best... hope we vl b meeting each others soon

n sing yee, hw r u? problem solved? gambate n all the best...

May God bless all of u^^

mayb u vl nt b seeing this things, bt i actually hope tat u all noes... bt nvm ~~~~~~ i m expressing my feelings anyway^^

gud luck to all my buddies including all the 木^^haha~~~ mumu, i miss u guys too... keeping gambate arrrr^^

11/5/11

ouhhh~~~ i m actually waiting for sbd to design my blog actually~ n thx for my best friend jing jing... i m in inti international university nw... Last Fri, i came to inti wif a happy n exciting mood... i was in an ecstatic mood n was looking forward to my universuty life~~ last Fri, i attended the OLE programme n gt to noe many frienzz n some senior who r relly very friendly n r all willing to help^^ tat makes me really hapi... and the next day, i was going wild wild wet coz all of us r playing at the surrounding of the swimming pool... tat makes me very happy n enjoyable...^^ however, i was really sad n down when i m in my room, doing nth... when i saw the walls, my heart will down n i feel tat there is sth missing in my life... n i cried... really cried... i wanted to c my mom, my dad, my family n all my friends... really, life without u all r so boring n empty... all of u r my part of life^^ on Sun, i went to Alamanda, Putrajaya n bought some necessities n books... tat costs me really a sum of money...^^ n den, comes my Mon, i started my first class n all things seem to b ok n fine...the lecturers r gud, the classmates r gud, my new friends r gud aso... Tuesday, everything goes fine n i went to the library... WOW~~~~ sososo biggggg~~~~~~ i luv it!!!! there r many books in it^^ n even computers in it~~~~^^ n den comes Wed, OMG~~ my class starts at 8.00 am~~~~ sososo early... bt the class was nice n fine... i was made a leader in my group ^^ i was happy bout it actually^^ n i have been given my first small assignment^^ n Fri morning is the DEADLINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG~~~~ bt making 10 sentences, ok larrrr~~~ haha^^den after my class i joined the Problem Based Learning (PBL) n the class was quite nice except for the smell... i dunno whose smell was tat^^ bt i think is the lecturer's one^^ haha^^ at nite, after bathing n washing my clothes, i gathered in my old room which i still slp yesterday, (coz i move down today) wif some other friends n have a nice n great chat there^^ we talk about ourselves n songs n many others thing... it was really very enjoying staying up till latenight... n i m looking forward to another night gathering (i should calll tat)^^

my buddies, i really miss u guys^^ hw i hope tat all of u r at my side nw... really... i miss u^^