ignored

seriously, m i actually born to b ignored??? i reali cun understand!!!!!!! in my primary sku, everyone treat me nice coz they wanted to use me!!!! or else, they dun even wanted to talk to me more coz i din have the same topic as theirs...yeah~~ i cn understand tat... all they say, i cun understand n luckly i've gt mao mao, jiahui, solvia n the gang~~ luckily~~ bt tat time, i reali do hope tat things vl change!!!

bt when i m in the secondary sku, i cn still feel the same feeling!!! tat reali makes me feel very disappointed~~ n again i cun do anything~~ luckily again, i've gt jing jing n jia yi n den gt sing yee wif us aso^^ yeah~~~ reali greatful to them~~ coz without them~~ i reali dunno hw i m going to survive in my sec sku life~~reali!!! den, i reali do hope tat things vl change whn i go to the university~

however, i still cun... though we do eat together, or sometimes do things together, they din care me aso~~(mayb i m too sensitive) bt hw vl u feel if sbd u cared din care as much as u care him/her?? hw cn u feel nth???? sure u vl feel very angry n sad~~ yeah~~~ by the way, i m nt tat kind of ppl tat everyone likes to b wif... i m proud, i m dirty( mayb), i m nt easy to gt along wif, i m ........... watever!!!!!!!!!

bt, i m nt going to tolerate anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have had enough!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! nw, i dun wanna care anymore!!!!!! if i wan it, i vl do it on my own!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wun care wat ppl think of me again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dun wanna care!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my feeling today~~

Today was really a free day… I stayed in my room all day n watched drama n did all the things I needed to do^^ though I feel very boring, I m glad tat i finished all my things… the oni regret today was tat I did nt read many today… kept watching drama n did nth… actually I should read more in tis free day… bt, I din did tat… really cun tahan my temptation to watch the drama… regretting nw T_T

Nw oni I understand wat frienzz are…n who really r my frienzz… (I have been thinking tis all day aso) thx to all my real frienzz tat relly keep me in their heart n appreciate me^^ I do luv u all n I do appreciate n feel hapi to have u all as my best frienzz… in inti, I realized tat I really cun find any firenzz like u all, like to read, like to study, like to play aso, n have almost the same thought as me^^ really… I cun find anyone… mayb I haven seen one, or mayb i really cun find one or mayb thr is no one same or similar like u all n me T_T frienzzz, we really shared a lot of hapi moments together n had a gala time together…although thr were some unhappy moment, we r still best frienzz until nw… coz if everything is gud, den ‘ gud’ means nth… so, a precious memory usually n often comes wif both hapi n unhapi moments…^^ rite? Buddies, I really miss u guys… all the hapi moments n wat we had done together really printed in my heart n I really cun n dun wanna erase it^^ I miss u all… everyday…^^

For me,

Frienz r like gems

As precious as gems

For me,

Frienz r like my family

Always treat meas their own family

Giving me all the things I need

Always know wat I need

Always understand wat I mean wat I wan n wat I m thinking

Really…. Frienzzz….

I wanna tell u ‘FUCK’

Dun b angry

Bcoz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

F rienzzz, U Can be Kept

Kept where???? In my heart forever n ever ^^

I luv u frienzzzz ^^

16-05-11

Today morning, after walking to the class, we were all told tat our basic computing tcher was nt going to come… == we r all very ‘zha dao’ lorrr~~ T_Tden, 3 o clock, GNS class, quite nice…. I like wat tcher say 2day “ u have to b as discipline as the alarm clock”… ^^ wat a nice idiom…^^ yaya, wat she said was rite “wat is the use of the alarm clock if u wanna slp bk? So, jus wake up when the alarm clock rings.” Haha^^ yaya~~ wat she said was really rite^^ bt tcher, do u noe tat thr is a thing call satisfaction? Haha~~ when u gt a chance to slp for more, of coz u wan!! ^^ so, tat’s y many ppl, including me, wanna slp bk after the alarm clock rings…^^ n den after the general studies, I gt my eng class… wat a boring class… wat he said was so unclear n he was so so so so so slowwwww~~~ haizz~~~~~~

At nite,I ironed my clothes whn they all went out for dinner… den, we gathered together in Abby’s room^^ having a nice chat^^ den, whn they go supper, I on9 n watch drama lorrr^^ haha~~^^ n nw, I m going to slp ady….-.-zzz tomorrow no class, so I cn slp late a bit^^ haha~~~so so so hapi ^^

Jing, hw r u today? We din sms today liehhh~~~ very tired????????? Miss u, dear… I luv u^^c u soon^^

15-05-11

Fri, i go bk home... very happy...n i watched drama till 5.00am...^^ sat, i went out yamcha wif my frienzzz^^ haha~~~~ very very very hapi to c them^^ bt sat was a very busy day T_T i went to buy a lot of things n at nite, i went to buffet...

today, i gt a new laptop from my mother liao... n coz i gt ady one... the laptop i gave car car to use liao^^ i reached my hostel at 8.00pm sth lorrr... den gathering wif frienzzzz...

jing jing, i vl b very miss u liaoT_T my frienzzzzz, i miss the hapi moments wif u guys...T_T hope tat we cn meet each other in the future n all the best to u all T_T gud luck my frienzzz.... c u all again together mayb after 10. 20 or even 30 yrs... gud luck, guys...^^i vl miss u all^^

mumu, i miss the time we live together... if i wanna find sbd like u all, i think it is impossible... cun find any roommate like u all liao... reali miss the time we r together liehhhh~~~~~ gud luck to u guys arrrrrr^^

13-05-11

Today i had a 8.00 am class... n after my classes end, i come back to kulai... my beloved kulai...^^ so happy^^ n i even drove bk till Yong Peng!!! wat a hapi n exciting experience driving on the highway~~^^ bt i m damn tired... den i went to my cousin's house for buffet n den went to Secret Recipe to celebrate my mom's bufdae^^ den, my sis n i watched drama till latenite till nw, 3.55am^^ sososo late... n i m damn damn damn tired...

the jpa, i din gt... though i knew it, i m so down n actually i hoped tat i gt it... bt unfortunately, i din gt it...haizzzz~~~~~~~~~~~~~ i m nt gud enough...haizzzzzzzzzzz~~~~~~~~~~ nvm... i vl study harder n harder so tat the govrnment vl regret tat they did nt offer me the scholarship... i promise to study very very very HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

frienzzz, c u all tomorrow^^

12-05-11

today is a happy day... today morning, i went to block c's study room to discuss the homework wif my classmates... the class starts at 2.00 to 4.00pm oni...the basic computing (lab session) was sososo difficult... my knowledge bout computer is nt gud n den they wan me to do tis do tat by ourselves... wat the bloody hell!!! OMG!!! haizzz~~~~ evening, go out for dinner by car... a frien's roommate's car^^ haha~~~ den go gathering till nw... we had a long chat n sang songs n many others... i feel tat our friendship is getting stronger n stronger...^^ tat is a gud thing^^

buddies, tomorrow i vl b bk to kulai... hope to c u guys soon... jing, i miss u^^ really, u vl b my best friend forever n no one vl b able to replace u in my heart... really... tis is wat i realise in the toilet when i wash my clothes... i do wish tat u vl always b at the side of me... T.T u r jus like a part of me...n i cun live without u... i really think tat...i really miss those time we were together... i miss u... n i luv u^^ (i m nt a les arrrr) haha^^

mumu, do u all miss me?? i really miss u all liehhh~~~~ hope u guys r doing well n gambate arrrr... da mu, i hope tat u have ady decide to go whr liao^^ when all of us gt time, dun ever forgt each other n come out to yamcha arrrr... jus nw, when i do my washing, i realise tat i do miss the life in the camp wif u all... singing in the bathroom, playing in the room, chatting, scolding n criticising ppl, eating n many many other things... really... hope u guys r the one living wif me nw... miss the hapi moments when we lived wif each others...

hw r all my buddies going on lately??? i wish i noe...........

gud luck~~~~~~~~~~~~ n nite~~~~~~

~~NITE~~

its too late ady... my room mate is having her sem break n i was alone... what i m thinking nw is all my fellow frienzz n my family...

really, absence makes the heart grow fonder...really~~

jing, i reallywanna c u^^ i really miss u... u noe i gt many things to tell u, bt jus when i saw u, i was too hapi n dunno watta say ady...really miss u... at form 6 i hope u gambate arrr^^ wish u all the best^^ u can do it^^

jia yi, i miss u too n all the best... hope we vl b meeting each others soon

n sing yee, hw r u? problem solved? gambate n all the best...

May God bless all of u^^

mayb u vl nt b seeing this things, bt i actually hope tat u all noes... bt nvm ~~~~~~ i m expressing my feelings anyway^^

gud luck to all my buddies including all the 木^^haha~~~ mumu, i miss u guys too... keeping gambate arrrr^^

11/5/11

ouhhh~~~ i m actually waiting for sbd to design my blog actually~ n thx for my best friend jing jing... i m in inti international university nw... Last Fri, i came to inti wif a happy n exciting mood... i was in an ecstatic mood n was looking forward to my universuty life~~ last Fri, i attended the OLE programme n gt to noe many frienzz n some senior who r relly very friendly n r all willing to help^^ tat makes me really hapi... and the next day, i was going wild wild wet coz all of us r playing at the surrounding of the swimming pool... tat makes me very happy n enjoyable...^^ however, i was really sad n down when i m in my room, doing nth... when i saw the walls, my heart will down n i feel tat there is sth missing in my life... n i cried... really cried... i wanted to c my mom, my dad, my family n all my friends... really, life without u all r so boring n empty... all of u r my part of life^^ on Sun, i went to Alamanda, Putrajaya n bought some necessities n books... tat costs me really a sum of money...^^ n den, comes my Mon, i started my first class n all things seem to b ok n fine...the lecturers r gud, the classmates r gud, my new friends r gud aso... Tuesday, everything goes fine n i went to the library... WOW~~~~ sososo biggggg~~~~~~ i luv it!!!! there r many books in it^^ n even computers in it~~~~^^ n den comes Wed, OMG~~ my class starts at 8.00 am~~~~ sososo early... bt the class was nice n fine... i was made a leader in my group ^^ i was happy bout it actually^^ n i have been given my first small assignment^^ n Fri morning is the DEADLINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG~~~~ bt making 10 sentences, ok larrrr~~~ haha^^den after my class i joined the Problem Based Learning (PBL) n the class was quite nice except for the smell... i dunno whose smell was tat^^ bt i think is the lecturer's one^^ haha^^ at nite, after bathing n washing my clothes, i gathered in my old room which i still slp yesterday, (coz i move down today) wif some other friends n have a nice n great chat there^^ we talk about ourselves n songs n many others thing... it was really very enjoying staying up till latenight... n i m looking forward to another night gathering (i should calll tat)^^

my buddies, i really miss u guys^^ hw i hope tat all of u r at my side nw... really... i miss u^^